Monday, May 3, 2010

Engagement = Hurry up and wait! ;-)

Being engaged is wonderful and weird. You finally get to talk about all the things that maybe you couldn't or didn't before but you are still not married. You are in a prolonged state of preparation. You are engaging your mind, heart and soul in what it will be like to get married but you don't actually do it. It's a prep period.

Our love gets to marinate in all the yummy ingredients our friends, families and even strangers give us to add some spice, kick, tenderizer and juiciness to the marinade ensuring that we don't get tough to chew or our love and relationship doesn't lack in saltiness.

It's so exciting and maddening all at the same time. Of course you want to be married to this person already or you wouldn't be engaged!

But that's the point.

I'm human and slow. And I need help. So we need these transitions, these times of God readying us. I know God is just being gentle with me by providing us with an engagement period. Lord knows I'm so darn independent and stubborn. I need 11 months of practice dying to myself so that it won't be a shock when I need to do that for my other half in the bed with me.